I hate you but i love you

I don't know why I'm in love with him until now. Even though it's been 2months and 8 days i think.
i hate being stupid but for now i don't care, it is because all i want is him no matter how stupid I' am in the eyes of my friends. I don't know what will i do for me to be happy because all i know his the one that will make me happy but now his gone I'm hopeless. This is the only way i know for me to let go of my feelings. :(